tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-90621598119480359812024-03-13T23:07:53.454+05:30VocabularySeetahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12116652586388032321noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9062159811948035981.post-54536324289191188562016-03-25T15:51:00.000+05:302016-03-25T15:51:18.827+05:308: letter to God<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Dear God,<br />
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I know that I don’t have a good past karma but why does what goes around comes around? I am not a person who would have knowledge of how you make this world work but I am just a tiny human being who doesn’t understands it all and make silly to big mistakes at times. But I love the little game you call the world. It is mesmerizing. For someone like me it is not very best. There are so many struggles for me but I still like being part of this. Thank you for this beautiful world.<br />
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I am taking my first step after a touchdown gone bad at Philippines. I will be going to Dharamsala to study Tibetan Buddhism philosophy for 1 month and I would extend my stay there if I enjoy it. This is just the first step to get accustomed to the normal world around me and eventually I dream this step would grow in a bigger life decision regarding my goal to be able to teach yoga. I have a rough idea about how I would like to proceed.<br />
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For now give me strength and courage to choose the simple thing and right thing for me. This time I am set out to change my patterns. I hope with your blessing, I will be able to make it this 1 month. Please give me enough wisdom to make kind decisions everyday and to choose my friends wisely. Please give me enough to eat and to distribute too. Save me from gluttony and overspending. May I lead a simple and kind life.
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Seetahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12116652586388032321noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9062159811948035981.post-58962548747464087602016-03-14T16:32:00.001+05:302016-03-14T16:47:28.646+05:307: soul talk<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Why is it that even the small things bother some people so much. We used to call this nature of the person as a sensitive nature but then after listening to Brahmakumaris I realized that this is not the sensitive nature of soul but this happens because the soul is weak. The soul has been through such a long journey changing the body everytime that now it has become weak and it can not tolerate small things.<br />
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Soul (well me!) get hurts with small negative reactions of people. Even when someone doesn't reply to my message it hurts me or i should say it hurts my ego. Why it is important for us to have things our way? What if the other person is not just in mood to reply back. Why a small thing becomes a big issue in the mind.<br />
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It's not just about that one thing. It's about how everyone is busy trying to save themselves and here some of us expect other people to save us. A person could be a weak soul and be sad and cry. But for how long? there are going to be so many negative experiences in the life, my dear. Are we just gonna sob over them and fall into depression some day or realize that ego isn't bigger than the soul and admit we are weak and thus we need to charge ourselves up (with yoga) and accept unconditionally whatever life has to offer us. </div>
Seetahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12116652586388032321noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9062159811948035981.post-58236006442540132062016-03-13T19:10:00.001+05:302016-03-13T19:10:35.227+05:306: differences<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Today was an average day like any other day. The girls came in the evening and brought their little brother along. He wouldn't let the girls study properly. I told them not to bring him to the class but inside i was wondering how difficult it would be for a 5 year old to take care of 1 year old baby while the mother is house keeper at some house.<br />
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Sometimes, it does hurt to see all the differences created in the society. How human being can be so heartless? It was just earlier today that i was discussing with Cherry that how people blindly ignore the goodness in people around them and look down upon them based on caste, creed, color and sex. Every person no matter how rich or poor is living his/her destiny. it has got nothing to do with how we treat the other person. Nothing gives anyone a right to downgrade someone. But this world is made up of many colors. what can be said or done.<br />
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On the other note, the weather is not being nice to people. Well, i love the rain and thunder but mom says that if it didn't stop raining then it will be harmful for the crops. It should be full summer by now but weather is being weird.<br />
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Seetahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12116652586388032321noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9062159811948035981.post-52443464211319223872016-03-12T17:26:00.001+05:302016-03-12T17:26:43.216+05:305: I wish<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I wish my language was as easy as my choice of simple words.<br />
I wish i wouldn't delete half a page of post.<br />
I wish i didn't make that post about patterns of my life.<br />
I wish the patterns of my life weren't so fucked up.<br />
I wish the fucked up was never a word in my vocabulary.<br />
I wish my vocabulary was a place to write only sweet thoughts and memories.<br />
I wish my memories consisted of all things nice.<br />
I wish nice would be tomorrow's weather like its today.<br />
I wish today is where I always live and not past or future.<br />
I wish that any step i take in future will lead me to a better self discovery.<br />
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But wishes are just wishes. I strongly believe that everything happens in our life is God's will. Everything is predestined with a little choice in human hand about how they want to work towards their evolution.</div>
Seetahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12116652586388032321noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9062159811948035981.post-55280162251933226472016-03-10T20:06:00.001+05:302016-03-10T20:06:21.314+05:304: <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
The girls are naughty. It's their third day that i have been teaching them but they are always in a playful mood. That doesn't mean they are not interested in learning. They are always excited to study new things. Ruby is 5 and Zuby is 3. Both come from an underprivileged Muslim family. Few days back my mom had an idea in her mind that since i don't do anything all day long, I can teach kids like that. I liked the idea because that is a kind of social service too. In the beginning, i was hesitant because i was new at it but then so were the girls. So, with different tasks and challenges everyday three of us enjoy the class.<br />
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I read Osho magazine and i really liked few things i read in it which i would like to share here:<br />
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<ol style="text-align: left;">
<li>We should keep our expectations to zero. When there are no expectations life become better than the best. It said that do not expect the good, do not be greedy towards anything. Do not expect anything to happen or anyone to act according to you. Be present, watch your mind and see that for an hour and you will feel happy and free. When you are able to do this for one hour then try doing it for 24 hours.</li>
<li>The past is like an unwanted invisible burden on your head. You can not go in the past. You can not relive the good times or the bad times so it is a waste to spend the energy to want to experience the past. Be aware of it and put that burden down . You will feel very light and you will feel good.</li>
<li>Don't look out for security. We humans are always looking for security. Our reputation in the society, the house, the car, the right job etc. When you let go of security , everything become yours, every joy become yours in life. When you let go of security, all your tensions will go away because you will not have a measurement of any materialistic thing and it will keep your desire to the minimal. </li>
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Seetahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12116652586388032321noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9062159811948035981.post-19685367556744584332016-03-09T11:19:00.001+05:302016-03-09T11:19:05.476+05:303: Love of books<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<blockquote class="tr_bq">
A reader lives a
thousand lives before he dies, said Jojen. The man who never reads lives only
one.</blockquote>
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Reading has been a hobby of mine which I developed
in college. I studied in a school where English wasn’t given much importance
and no one promoted reading among the students. One of my cousins worked in a
book store and Ajay bhaiya told me that books are the best friend anyone can
have and that a person would never feel lonely if he has the company of right
books. Hence started my unending love of books. My goodreads account says that
I have read about 40 books till now.<br />
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Why I choose to write about my love of books is
because for the past few months I haven’t been feeling the right emotions to
read any book at all. I tried reading different genres but it didn’t work. I
just couldn’t sit in one place and enjoy reading. Blame it on the depression I
stopped enjoying certain things.<br />
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I continued reading autobiography of Adolf Hitler.
I have read half of it earlier. I started reading just for the sake of
developing my hobby of reading again. It is also better than what my doctor
tells me to watch daily serials on TV. There is something about Indian TV shows
that I can’t tolerate.<br />
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I read most of the autobiography in 2014, I think
so I don’t really remember whole of it but what I liked about it was Hitler’s
passion for politics and how from very beginning he had every little detail
planned out in his mind. Most of the book is filled with the political issues.
I’ve not been interested in politics so I decided that now I have read the part
1 of the book and I will keep it to that.
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Seetahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12116652586388032321noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9062159811948035981.post-12680175852798581702016-03-08T14:55:00.003+05:302016-03-08T14:55:40.910+05:30Chapter 2: Misc.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
My Shivratri celebration has been good. I meditated
on sadguru’s words and though it didn’t help me reach the higher levels, my
body felt elevated. I was satisfied with my experience. Mom cooked potato
paneer for the dinner which was absolutely fabulous. Thanks to her for being
amazing cook sometimes.<br />
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I watched a (not so old) movie Iron Man 2 today. I
liked Robert Downy Jr. in the movie. I think it’s after a long time that I liked
someone of opposite sex. For a long time now I have forgotten what infatuation
feels like but it needs some other post to describe it. I was moving a lot
between the movie. I was watering the plants and hence I was out in the garden
a lot.<br />
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It’s the beginning of the summer now, I think. All
the full sleeves clothes go in the box and now it’s time for beautiful dresses
again. Haha, who am I kidding? I am in a city where wearing dress could
encourage boys for cat calling. My statement could be wrong because in a way
dress has nothing to do with this kind of behavior in men but it also depends
on place to place. Anyways, I have already decided to keep it simple and wear
traditional suits this season. Gone are the days when I used to buy everything
branded and in style. There is no part of me that wants to live that crazy city
girl life again.<br />
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I leave with the quote by Nellie Bly
:<br />
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<blockquote class="tr_bq">
Energy rightly
applied and directed will accomplish anything.
</blockquote>
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Seetahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12116652586388032321noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9062159811948035981.post-18413681030223059552016-03-07T17:34:00.000+05:302016-03-07T17:34:25.453+05:30chapter 1: karma yoga <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<blockquote class="tr_bq">
You have been gifted a diamond like body; spend your
time being involved in karma yoga to make full use of your life.</blockquote>
<br />
The concept of karma yoga is not unknown. For me it
simply means selfless service. This has been a reason along with my quest of
looking for my real self that I joined a nonprofit based in a small town in
Himalayas. It was a root level organization and worked directly with the people
of local community. I started my day one with painting the wooden basket and
almost ended my duration there by performing theater in front of about 1000
people. It was such an amazing self discovery journey that I went through. It
was during that time I really developed interest in karma yoga.<br />
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My mind set took a stronger form when I went to
Philippines to attend Yoga Teachers Training (YTT). I worked in the kitchen,
worked on the computer and attended classes while I was there. It was a
different kind of enjoyment there which I would write about in some other blog
post.<br />
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Presently, I reside in my parent’s home in this city
which is not very big. My belief in karma yoga still persists. After I
recovered from the stressful state of my mind, I decided to do something good
for the social cause again. For some time, I was confused about what steps
should I take and where I should go. In my quest of looking out for some
volunteer work in nonprofit sector I joined an institute of physically
challenged children and taught them yoga. But after a while I stopped going
there. I could hold stress responsible for that but I would say that happened
because I was lazy and my nature to quit. Then I started going to a nonprofit
in this city. I must tell you that I had great opportunities there. I could
have worked directly with the community which I learnt as an experience of
working at another nonprofit. I went there for a while and then confusion took
over most of my mind.<br />
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Since then I’ve been on a break so that my mind
could rest more and then decide what I want to do next, how I want to start
working for people again. This period wasn’t easy for me. I had to go through a
phase of serious anguish and rage for certain good and garbage thoughts that occurred.
But it’s coming to an end now. The light at the end of the tunnel doesn’t seem
so far now. I’ve got few things in my hand and I want to continue them for a
long while.<br />
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With this, I wish everyone a Happy Shivratri and a
good day.
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